|I remember looking around my classroom and thinking of where I would hide my second graders if the unthinkable would ever happen.
Back then as a new teacher we were taught about what to do during a lock down. Where to hide the kids. I knew of Columbine but never imagined that it would happen again, and certainly not in an elementary school. Then Sandy Hook happened. I was between teaching jobs and still to this day am haunted by that tragedy.
I left teaching several years ago and my heart breaks every single time I see that yet another school shooting has occurred. And even though it’s been years since I left teaching, I still have nightmares to this day about school shootings. Just a few months ago I had one…involving hiding in an auditorium.
This book left me breathless and to a point, distraught. I felt the fear and uncertainty of the characters. I was flooded with emotion in recalling a school I worked at that was predominantly Muslim. This book was almost too close to home in some instances which is why I am still in recovery mode.
Nowadays teachers are taught active shooter drills. Are shot with pellet guns to simulate a shooting. Kids partake in drills that would’ve have been seen as asinine twenty years ago or so. This book is a wake up call that it will never stop.
Now for the book, it’s hard to not be biased and separate my emotions with the actual structure of the book. I actually really liked the intertwined stories of some of the students as well as the shooter. It was confusing at times though with do many characters, which is why I didn’t rate it the full five. More like 4.5. Anyway, the entire time I was holding my breath but the ending felt rushed and I am honestly still confused as to what happened in the end. Mr. Marr? Was there another shooter? Beautifully written book that touched on a topic that can be very hard to articulate.